These members of the Wellness team in the Department of Neurology at the University of Colorado each spoke about the importance of community and connection.
They had formed this unit over the summer in response to the pandemic.
“Everyone has something in common because of COVID, and everyone is being more vulnerable sharing how isolation is affecting us,” one member said. “Talking with our colleagues is sometimes the only social interaction we have, so it matters a lot more right now.”
“Being in residency is a tough process. You need a ton of grit to get through it,” another member told me. “We want to build a culture of support and invest in people’s health.”
“There’s lots to know and learn about the brain. It doesn’t follow a textbook,” said one of the doctors on the team. “To live with such uncertainty and now to live in a world of uncertainty… In some ways our patients are a lot better prepared for the unknown.”
Another doctor I spoke with said: “Now we know that stress can lead to psychological injuries that can lead to physical injuries, and we don’t want people to suffer health issues before taking a moment for themselves. We want people to know that they can talk about what’s on their mind. The goal is not to teach people how to live—the goal is to give them the opportunity to do what they want to do.”
Listener Poet Ravenna Raven
University of Colorado Anschutz Medical Campus
December 2020
Endless Currents
Our brains are like the ocean--
there’s so much we don’t know
about these vast expanses
of endless currents.
Neurology teaches us humility.
It’s important to
name the uncertainty,
celebrate small victories,
help patients sleep,
laugh through the grief,
share kindness, poetry,
music, humanity,
find moments of tranquility.
“I wonder if these medical professionals, in caring for people who face such insurmountable odds, walk around all the time carrying this weight I’m hauling now.”
He had been trying to cope with the grief ever since and was on a quest for soul-searching and meaning-making.
She spoke about the ways this traumatic event shaped who she is today: a person with an “unshakeable peace” born of deep faith,
She wanted to help people feel comfortable and transform the shame around colon issues. "I want to talk about things that matter, the things people don't want to discuss.
When we met, she was coming off a stretch of nine 14-hour shifts. She was tired but in good spirits.
She reflected on how her resilience was born from moments of shared mirth amid life's trying chapters.
“Life is complex and dirty, but digging in is important to me,” she said. “Maybe if more of us understood history, we could understand each other better.”
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
Every day, I try to see through the patient lens, and I ask: what can we do to change this broken system?
She was very proud of her daughter and has hopes for “a bright future that’s as pain free as possible”
“I’m trying to focus on doing little things to make people feel better during everything that’s going on in the world,” she told me.
“It’s hard to see others struggle,” she said. “How can I help with their struggle without struggling myself?”
"I'd tell her it's OK to be loud...it's OK to challenge and to bring all of you into these spaces where no one looks like you..."
“I'm continuously questioning: did I do it right?" she said. "I’ve always done a good amount of second-guessing, but I’m re-learning how to show up differently.”
“It’s weird,” she said. “This is one of the biggest accomplishments of my life, but it doesn’t feel like it.”
"It changed me; It changed the way I look at life," said this woman about her profound experience during her pregnancy.
“It’s been more challenging than normal lately,” she said. “I’m only one person. It's a struggle for me to say no, but I can’t do everything that’s being asked of me right now.”
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.