The five of them work together in a Pediatric ER unit.
“People die here,” one exclaimed, and part of their job is to bring light to a dark place.
They had just been introduced to the word meraki, which means putting your soul, creativity, and love into your work. They’re there for each other, always checking in to make sure everyone is okay. “A hug and a little humor is sometimes all you need.”
Listener Poet Kay McKean
October 2019
Lightening Bugs
It’s 7:08, let’s fly!
The sun has set, nowhere to be seen
behind the clouds she lies, in a state of rest
so now’s our chance to light up the night.
Our wine - oh oops! - I mean our wings,
they’re ready to soar
taking our tiny, bright lightening bug hearts
on a very big tour.
I’ll fly east, you’ll fly north,
he’ll fly south, she’ll fly west,
for each other we’ll do our best.
Mom and Dad may catch us,
and in their embrace we’ll go.
hey, that’s ok, it’s just what they need,
what we need,
we know.
“I always believe, no matter what the doctor says, that I will be cured,” she says as her sister sits next to her.
“I wonder if these medical professionals, in caring for people who face such insurmountable odds, walk around all the time carrying this weight I’m hauling now.”
He had been trying to cope with the grief ever since and was on a quest for soul-searching and meaning-making.
She spoke about the ways this traumatic event shaped who she is today: a person with an “unshakeable peace” born of deep faith,
She wanted to help people feel comfortable and transform the shame around colon issues. "I want to talk about things that matter, the things people don't want to discuss.
When we met, she was coming off a stretch of nine 14-hour shifts. She was tired but in good spirits.
She reflected on how her resilience was born from moments of shared mirth amid life's trying chapters.
“Life is complex and dirty, but digging in is important to me,” she said. “Maybe if more of us understood history, we could understand each other better.”
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
We are expected to research, contribute to scholarship, earn grants – all on our own time.
Every day, I try to see through the patient lens, and I ask: what can we do to change this broken system?
She was very proud of her daughter and has hopes for “a bright future that’s as pain free as possible”
“I’m trying to focus on doing little things to make people feel better during everything that’s going on in the world,” she told me.
“It’s hard to see others struggle,” she said. “How can I help with their struggle without struggling myself?”
"I'd tell her it's OK to be loud...it's OK to challenge and to bring all of you into these spaces where no one looks like you..."
“I'm continuously questioning: did I do it right?" she said. "I’ve always done a good amount of second-guessing, but I’m re-learning how to show up differently.”
“It’s weird,” she said. “This is one of the biggest accomplishments of my life, but it doesn’t feel like it.”
"It changed me; It changed the way I look at life," said this woman about her profound experience during her pregnancy.
“It’s been more challenging than normal lately,” she said. “I’m only one person. It's a struggle for me to say no, but I can’t do everything that’s being asked of me right now.”
"I've been processing how to make the most of the small amount of life we have to live," said this physician.